Friday, July 20, 2012


That is just how I need to start this blog because the frustration I feel in regards to this week.


Yes, I had to do it again. This week just seemed like a crappy week of Ugh and I am left just feeling rather blah and a slight jiltness that I really hate to feel.  From Monday's unfortunate news about the statue at Penn State staying up, from George Zimmermans interview that really hurt my heart, from the BIGOT "friend" who posted something so offensive in response to George Zimmerman (clearly showing support and probably donated to his get out of jail free fund), to the senseless and horrific deaths of those poor people in Colorado at the hands of a clear psychopath, to my sister who has the tendency of being a complete and utter hypocrite in what she is allowed to say to others (which is usually completely offensive and distasteful) to what people can jokingly say to her, I am at my complete WITS END!!  Now of course I love my baby sister, and she is pregnant and most likely hormonal, but it definitely makes how I'm already feeling worse. To put it mildly, this week has been shitty, and I hate feeling this way because God has truly been too good to me to complain about things outside of my control.  My frustration seriously got so huge, I just deactivated my facebook page. In actuality, I may reactivate it in the next 24-48 hours, but I seriously just had a take a damn break because I am letting the actions of other people affect my mood. Last night, I snapped at my husband so ugly because I was angry about a facebook posting from a bigot, that then resulted in a facebook argument with other bigots. The funny thing is, God was simply just answering a prayer that I've been praying for some time. I've been asking God to bring me closer to the people who are meant to be in my life and who are meant to nourish my morals, values, relationship with Him, and relationship with my family. I also asked God to get out of my life those who are toxic, who substract from my character, morals, and values, and who isn't helping me get closer to Him. Even though God has been whispering to me about several people in-particular, I chose not to listen. He knew my stubborn self had to get angry in order to finally get it. Well, I got it. So I am putting on my big girl panties and taking in some Maya Angelou quotes that speaks to the lessons learned this week and those I need to take with me:

“The first time someone shows you who they are, believe them.”

“Courage: the most important of all the virtues because without courage, you can't practice any other virtue consistently.” ― Maya Angelou

“You alone are enough. You have nothing to prove to anybody.” ― Maya Angelou

“I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life. I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as making a "life." I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one. I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I've learned that I still have a lot to learn. I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” ―Maya Angelou

Wow, I feel better already.
This has been a MOMment of Reflection. Tomorrow I hope to be back to my regularly scheduled program of OPTIMISM.


  1. I'm sorry but I literally LOLed at the title of this post.

    Who was talking crazy out of the side of their face at you?!? Let me at 'em! Something that I had to learn quickly about FB is that it is an opinion forum. I get quickly angered by peoples comments about the president, stupid support of George Zimmerman, hell, I even get mad at the stupid girls that are still making duck faces. Take it with a grain of salt and don't let ignorant butt people effect you.

    I will tread lightly because your sister is your sister, but I would make it clear to her that hatefulness behind the disguise of pregnancy is still hatefulness. Tell her that I said "stop it right now."

    It's okay to not poop rainbows and sunshines everyday, you're human. I love the rainbowed Jen just as much as I love the "heated" Jen. Hang in there, today is a new day, and we are going on vaca next week!!! XOXO!

    1. Awwwwww, thanks so much dear friend :). I'm glad you appreciate both sides because I have a feeling some people can either take it or leave it. LOL. But you are so right, I need to take everything on social media with a grain of salt and stop being so sensitive. Also after 27 years I should be use to my sister but I think she was created to both love and get under my skin. Only person I can change though is me and if I can't change a situation I must change my attitude.

      But yes ma'am week!!!! Yayyyyy! And checked the weather, no rain on Saturday with a high of 90! Whoot!!!!!