IS EVERYONE ON EFFING CRACK!?!?!

Ugh.
That is just how I need to start this blog because the frustration I feel in regards to this week.

Ugh.

Yes, I had to do it again. This week just seemed like a crappy week of Ugh and I am left just feeling rather blah and a slight jiltness that I really hate to feel.  From Monday's unfortunate news about the statue at Penn State staying up, from George Zimmermans interview that really hurt my heart, from the BIGOT "friend" who posted something so offensive in response to George Zimmerman (clearly showing support and probably donated to his get out of jail free fund), to the senseless and horrific deaths of those poor people in Colorado at the hands of a clear psychopath, to my sister who has the tendency of being a complete and utter hypocrite in what she is allowed to say to others (which is usually completely offensive and distasteful) to what people can jokingly say to her, I am at my complete WITS END!!  Now of course I love my baby sister, and she is pregnant and most likely hormonal, but it definitely makes how I'm already feeling worse. To put it mildly, this week has been shitty, and I hate feeling this way because God has truly been too good to me to complain about things outside of my control.  My frustration seriously got so huge, I just deactivated my facebook page. In actuality, I may reactivate it in the next 24-48 hours, but I seriously just had a take a damn break because I am letting the actions of other people affect my mood. Last night, I snapped at my husband so ugly because I was angry about a facebook posting from a bigot, that then resulted in a facebook argument with other bigots. The funny thing is, God was simply just answering a prayer that I've been praying for some time. I've been asking God to bring me closer to the people who are meant to be in my life and who are meant to nourish my morals, values, relationship with Him, and relationship with my family. I also asked God to get out of my life those who are toxic, who substract from my character, morals, and values, and who isn't helping me get closer to Him. Even though God has been whispering to me about several people in-particular, I chose not to listen. He knew my stubborn self had to get angry in order to finally get it. Well, I got it. So I am putting on my big girl panties and taking in some Maya Angelou quotes that speaks to the lessons learned this week and those I need to take with me:

“The first time someone shows you who they are, believe them.”

“Courage: the most important of all the virtues because without courage, you can't practice any other virtue consistently.” ― Maya Angelou

“You alone are enough. You have nothing to prove to anybody.” ― Maya Angelou

“I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. I've learned that you can tell a lot about a person by the way he/she handles these three things: a rainy day, lost luggage, and tangled Christmas tree lights. I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life. I've learned that making a "living" is not the same thing as making a "life." I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back. I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one. I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back. I've learned that I still have a lot to learn. I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” ―Maya Angelou

Wow, I feel better already.

This has been a MOMment of Reflection. Tomorrow I hope to be back to my regularly scheduled program of OPTIMISM.

-Jennifer